alone, in my quiet, I'm allowed time to think, meditate. a world of my own creating in my head. my wants and desires arise in this dream state. as do my pains and hurts. fear creeps into these thoughts too. usually I would call it stress, choosing to suppress it with a special bottle (or two) of wine. here though, in the power of this moment, I choose clarity. I face my fears. scary at first until I learn to live with my past. each story a little demons needing to be put to bed. they are scary too until I learn to meet them and thus myself with love. it is, after all my past, why not love it, only I understand the reality of it. especially here, in this power of this moment inside my head, in the world of my own creating, this meditative space.
i decide fear is no longer welcome here, in this world. neither is laziness, shame, self-doubt, guilt and any of the unruly friends fear might try to bring along to try to hold me back. I take my power back from fear, rather than being a slave to it, I challenge fear to teach me it's secrets. fear becomes a co-creator in my greatest adventures.
At peace with my past I can live in my present towards a future of my creating. this is a meditation that begins tonight, but it need not stay in my head. I can learn to live it, speak it, share it with those around me. the magic of tonight shows me the possibility of this reality.
for the rest of tonight I choose to remain alone. I have a blue moon to enjoy